mmm, i, funny enough, started in a similar boat, since my partner also has some little tendencies, but i am really bad with kids so i couldn't really work with her when she was little. i still feel kinda bad about that part, but it's not really something i can undo. it is kinda ironic though thst i actually kinda hate kids but also spend so much time in tiny baby brain mode, but i really like having my cg, she makes me feel safe in a way that i really haven't felt before, it really is a nice feeling