You do have to host it yourself or run your own personal instance to get the power of SearXNG; if you've not tried this, please do not write it off.
If hosting it yourself or even running it locally in a container on your machine at home is too technical for you; nobody is going to bane you for that. In fact there's several guides and videos out there that might help you if you're inclined to learn.
If not; you're also free to continue consuming as you do.