I'm over a year on HRT and still don't fully understand my own sexuality. Is it attraction to women or envy? Is it attraction to men or a need for gender affirmation? Idk. I just know that I have strong desires and ambitions. š«
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I love buying girl stuff!! Cute shoes, thigh highs, tops, skirts, short-shorts, dresses, bras, panties, I love shopping so much!!
Shopping feels so lonely. Itād be so much more fun to go shop with friends.
I want some girl friends!! We could go see movies, go shopping, go to clubs, chat about all the things, It would be so awesome!!
Life feels so very lonely. I donāt have any friends, no romantic relationship, and no idea how to even go out and find people.
I want a cute boyfriend!! I want him to **** me, **** me, **** my ****, ***** me, ***** me, ******* *** ****** me!!
My body feels so foreign. I deeply crave intimacy but my body feels wrong.
I want bottom surgery!! I wanna be smooth, flat, comfortable, and sexy! I want to feel complete! I want to have a vagina!!
Surgery feels so distant. I need to find a surgeon, get psychiatrist referral, laser is taking forever, and itās all expensive.
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